Back from my weekend away and I had such a great time. On Saturday I went to visit the university I'm going to be spending the next 4 years of my life at. I had never visited the university or city before, so I was a bit afraid that I'd hate it. Turns out that I love it and I'm so excited for September. I'm so happy with my choice ahh. The university is full of people who are so passionate about their subject and the campus is so perfect. Although, it is a long way to travel. Got my first train at 9:30 am this morning and didn't get home until 6:40 pm. Not going to lie, I am a little nervous with how far away it is, however I'm sure that I'll get used to it.
The one thing that was made apparent to me was how much my life is going to change. It's a completely different lifestyle. One that will take me some time to get used to. Staying at home and playing Minecraft on my days off won't be happening. Realistically, I won't be staying on here. I need to make the most out of uni. As much as I love being on here, it's not something that will last forever. The next couple of months is now about preparing for university. So excited to leave work and embark on a new adventure
Going to be inactive for a few days. On Friday I'm off to visit the university I will be spending the next 4 years of my life at. I've never been before, so it better be good haha. Takes 7 hours to get there, so yay. Also, I just need a break from here. Hopefully having some time away will make me a bit more motivated again.
I like making long random posts about life because I think it's important to be real and honest, so yeah hi.
Lately, a lot of things have changed. Even in the past few weeks, things have changed and I feel different? I realised how close I am to leaving home and going to university in September. I'm already having to face issues differently due to having to be more independent. Little stressed about sorting out student finance. Worried about how I'm going to cope at university, being 400 miles away from my family, having to live by myself, manage money more strictly, worried about making friends, the list is endless. The biggest thing that worries me is just having nobody. After having nobody at school, I don't want to go back to that. My gap year has almost finished and I do agree that I feel more confident and can talk to people a lot better, but it still worries me a lot. My family has been away for the whole weekend, leaving me in the house by myself. This has led to me thinking about how differently it feels not constantly being able to come home to family members.
I leave work at the end of July. Right now I literally have no motivation towards it at all. I hate working in a job that has no progression and no goals. I'm someone who constantly needs to be working towards something. I have got the personal benefits out of the job such as improving my communication skills, however working in retail is just demotivating. Looking at the next couple of months sort of makes me a little sad because I hate just waking up, going to work for 7.5 hours and then repeating it the next day. At the end of the day, that is life and that's what will happen after university. I just don't want my life to be like that. A week ago, I bought a MacBook Pro. I have wanted one since I was 7 and through my job I have been able to save up for one. This is sort of a big accomplishment for me and I know that sounds odd, but having saved up for it all by myself is such a great feeling. Recently, I met someone who just makes my day, puts a smile on my face and makes me happy. Not something I expected to happen but, it's nice because right now I'm just lacking motivation for a lot of things. One of those things being Mineplex. Sort of feel like I need to take a break and I probably will next weekend when I go to visit a university for the weekend. I've been a staff member for around 9 months now and I've never really had a break, I just put my full effort into to it every day. Due to lacking motivation lately, I haven't really performed as well as I would have liked to and may have made a few mistakes.
At the end of the day, I'm not perfect and life is weird.
Don't worry about problems and issues that you can't yet influence, I told you that before, have I not? It's going to work out one way or another, but no matter what, you have to keep moving. I can't promise that you won't be alone in real life, but you will definitely always have this entire community to back you up
