Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time.

It's the fear of failure but no urge to be productive.

It's wanting friends but not being able to socialize.

It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely.

It's caring about everything and caring about nothing at the same time.

It's feeling everything at once and feeling paralyzingly numb.

Nobody is perfect, and nobody deserves to be perfect.

Nobody has it easy, everybody has issues.

You never know what people are going through.

So pause before you start judging, criticizing, or mocking others.

Everybody is fighting their own unique war.

As we grow older together,

as we continue to change with age,

there is one thing that will never change...

I will always keep falling in love with you.

I've made mistakes in my life.

I've let people take advantage of me, and accepted way less than I deserve.

But I've learned from my bad choices, and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time, and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

One day it just clicks.

You realize what's important and what isn't.

You learn to care less about what other people think of you and more about what you think of yourself.

You realize how far you've come and you remember when you thought things were such a mess that you would never recover.

And you smile.

You smile because you are truly proud of yourself and the person you've fought to become.

"Time heals all wounds" isn't true. The pain lessens as we learn to deal with it, but it's never truly completely gone. We're simply forced to accept something that we cannot change, and it leaves a scar upon us that never goes away. You'll still have these moments sometimes when it hurts really bad.

Everyone you meet is fighting a battle that you know nothing about.

Be kind.

Always.

Sometimes, crying is the only way your eyes can speak when your mouth can't explain how broken your heart is.

My pain might be the reason for someone's laughter, but my laughter will never be the reason for someone's pain.

~Charlie Chaplin (rewrote it slightly)

The moment that you died, my heart was split in two; One side was filled with memories, the other died with you.

I often lay awake at night when the world is fast asleep; and take a walk down memory lane with tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy, I do it everyday; but missing you is heartache that never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart and there you will remain; you see life has gone on without you, but will never again be the same.

Please cherish the time you have with your mother and/or father or guardian(s). Having lost both my mom and dad, I can't tell you how many times I've just wanted them back for one more day. I have so many regrets that will live with me for the rest of my life. Regret and disgust that I said mean and hurtful things (that I can never take back) towards them when I was a kid / teenager. Regret that I didn't learn to appreciate them and the things they did for me as much as I should have. Regret that I didn't spend more time with them and tell them that I loved them more.

So please, PLEASE imagine how life will be for you without your parents. If you feel like you'd have regrets, do your best to mend them now while you still can before it's too late.

Oh my! It looks like you've stumbled across the wall that belongs to the taco. I'm not quite sure how you wound up here, but hello!

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Fun Toki Facts:

- Gone around the sun 21 times! (Sing the birthday song on October 6th!)
- Married to Llen in real life! <3
- Favorite color isn't actually orange, shocker! It's blue!
- Belong to the LGBQT+ community, because I am attracted to guys and gals!
- Chicken is the food I like the most, alfredo probably above the rest of the chicken dishes!
- Worst fear is probably losing more people that I care about. :c
- My beliefs are that there isn't a God / God(s), however I fully respect everybody's right to believe differently than me!

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Toki's Mineplex Staff Accomplishments (thus far):

- Submitted my first and only Helper(Trainee) Application, October 28th 2014
- Helper Interview with Soverly, November 20th 2014
- Accepted as a Helper by Giovanna, November 22nd 2014
- Promoted early to Mod by Byron (recommendation from Dooskee), January 6th 2015
- Invited to ModCoord by Ishh_, February 8th 2015
- Accepted as a SR member by DoctorArgon, February 20th 2015 (Team replaced by TMA)
- Invited to RC by Dooskee, March 11th 2015
- Promoted to ModCoord Manager(Trial Management) by BlueBeetleHD, April 5th 2015
- Accepted to RPA by Wanderer, August 7th 2015(Resigned from the team October 30th 2016)
- Invited to EET by Chiss, October 14th 2015(Team disanded)
- Switched to Monitoring Manager from Trial Management Manager in ModCoord, November 2nd 2015
- Became PMA(MCA) Manager, November 2nd 2015
- Promoted to EET lead by RustyRoo, December 15th 2015(Team disanded)

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Remember, as much as I'd like to be a perfect human and make absolutely no mistakes, that's an impossibility. Everyone makes mistakes, I do, you do, we all do. The ability to own up to mistakes when they are made is what someone should be judged by.

Is Mineplex "censoring" my opinions, or the content I have on my wall? No. I speak my mind truthfully and honestly about any subject that I WANT to! What you see here is the real me, no bullcrap, no cutting back, just my honest thoughts.

Have a great day / night, and thanks for visiting my wall!