Now, to tell my friends in a few minutes (:

I did it (:

First step done. I told everyone in my house i have to talk to them...

Today we have band practice and hopefully he's there (: If he is, then it'll be the only time I see him during break ;-; but atleast I get to see him lol

Also, on Saturday when we went to the competition, I sat in the front of the bus and he sat in the back, and we looked each other in the eyes once when I looked back lol and when we were coming back from the competetion, everyone on the bus was doing 'rap battles' and I was still in the front because I didn't feel like joining them, and then they called my friend that sat next to me to go with them because he can beatbox so I just sat there alone listening to music with headphones on and I just sat there hoping that bae would come sit next to me but he never did ;-; and then my friend came back and we talked and then bae walked to the front of the bus, sat in the seats infront of me and my friend for a while and then just went back xD Also when they were doing the rap battles, I kinda caught him looking at my direction a couple times from the corner of my eye, but it was pretty dark inside the bus since it was already night time lol

Today I had practice, he was there of course. And yes, im writing about that guy again xD. We had a lunch break in the middle of practice so a couple of friends and I went to place not far from the school to buy something and he was walking infront of us with other people. One of the girls I was walking with then said that she liked that guy, so that's when I got upset. Later, once he was paying, I heard him say that he wanted something to drink. (I was right behind him) So he looked backed at me, looked down at my hand to see what drink I had, and he went to get a drink and he got the same one as me. I don't ever see him getting that drink xD. And then when we were walking back, the girl that likes him was all acting nervous cause he was infront of us and my other friend was like pushing her next to him and Im just there getting upset.

Anyways, goodnight<3

I also feel stupid cause he was laying down alone like a few steps infront of me and i was laying down with my other friends and he just seemed like he was waiting for someone to come over to him and it felt like he knew i was looking at him so he didnt like pull down his shirt cause like when he laid down his shirt went up and so yeah but im just super confused ;-;

I fell stupid because i was laying down and the guy (from band) comes sit next to me and he gets a flag and like starts to swing it around and he puts it ontop of me like playfully and i was just there ignoring it -.- and then i told one of my close friends thats hes bae and he was like tell that to ___(the guy) and i just stood there not saying anything just smiling and right now, hes sitting like right infront of me and when i glanced up, he looked away..

OMG So the guy from band just sent me a friend request on Facebook.. I literally just turned on my phone to see what time it was and It said "(name) sent you a friend request" My heart dropped when I saw that, like i'm really excited and confused at the same time because we don't talk in person so why would he want to be my friend on Fcaebook? but who cares! lol but omg, I just can't even right now, im like so happy. xD

Theres seriously like a connection with the guy from band.. Its weird but i Can feel it lol

Since im 'blind' it's really hard to see. So it was harder to see when (VV) he looks at me. but I seriously can not stop thinking about that moment that happened earlier today (VV) Anyways, it's kinda hard to see in class but luckly its just till tomorrow then i get contacts I've been waiting so long to get contacts (:

About that guy from band, he still keeps doing it and ive noticed that he keeps playing his instrument infront of me like hes played the tuba, guitar, and saxophone infront of me. I honestly am confused if he likes me or not and just now, we looked each other in the eyes cause he walked by me and he like nodded and did a half smile but im just confused cause he seems straight, it doesnt seem like he likes guys like i could kinda tell when someone is interested in guys but its hard to see if he is lol but anyways ill hopefully be on later since im in class.

Theres this guy whos in marching band with me and he like stares at me and when i glance at him he looks away and when hes around me he tries to show off his body cause he has abs and stuff and im over here trying to ignore him lol but idek xD I thought he was in 10th grade but i just saw he was in 11th so yeah nothing can happen ig xD